This was my last 5 minutes.

30 seconds on taking the picture, 2 minutes on editing colors & textures, and 1.5 minutes sitting in this position before I decided to be artsy with the time.  I hate waiting.  I’m not a very patient person.  There’s always something I could be doing… I write could, but in my core, I’m saying SHOULD be doing.  Angie gets on me about working too much.  And, at 10:30pm last night, it hit me that about 4 hours earlier she had asked me if I was addicted to my computer.  I didn’t even hear it at the time.  I answered her with a quick chuckling “no,” but I didn’t HEAR her.

Then just now, as I wait for a file to upload to the Crosspoint website (after I’ve already been in appointments, done this weeks art, and saved a PMdesign client’s website from falling into the abyss), I can’t sit for 5 minutes and soak in the fresh air blowing in while people walk in and out of the door I’m sitting next to, I can’t dream about how life is going to change in the next few weeks with the pending adoption, I don’t even think to pull out my Bible and read from Luke as we’ve been challenged at Crosspoint to do for a 6 week period… I just start to tap my foot more and mroe violently at how slow the internet is.

Which makes me think of this video I saw with Louis CK on Conan.

So, I closed my computer down at 10:30 last night.  Curled up to my sleeping wife and tried to go to sleep.  But, my brain wouldn’t slow down.  About an hour and a half later, I was out… pretty good for me actually.

Now I’m frustrated again by technology not working as fast I as I would wish.  And, I add to the cycle of pissed off 20-somethings that want everything now.  I think something’s sturring inside of me to slow down.  Now to only figure out how.